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I Am Not Alone
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It’s not always easy to sit here and try to write something that might help someone. Sometimes I sit here at this desk pouring out my own soul. It’s my own brokenness that ends up being put in print. I tend to be preaching to myself through all the pain and suffering that I sometimes feel. It wasn’t that long ago when I felt I could handle every situation that came before me. Those were the days when Susan and I faced the world together. We could lean on one another and lift each other up. We were always there for each other and when one faced an issue we faced it together. Every situation that came along we tackled together. We sought the Lord together, we praised the Lord together, we worshipped the Lord together and we served the Lord together.
It’s been a long road from then to now. I’m still learning to handle things without Susan. Months have passed and I have at times felt so alone. I have felt that the battles I have had to fight, I had to face alone.
A few weeks ago I had a vision. I saw myself in a vast body of water with no land in sight. There I was swimming, treading water, and no place to go. I heard the Voice of God speak to me. He said, “How long will you tread water until you drown?” I was puzzled, I wasn’t sure what God was trying to show me or say to me. I contemplated this vision and prayed and sought God for answers but it was days before He revealed the meaning. There I was in the vision treading water, swimming and getting nowhere. I was alone...alone...alone facing a vast sea and so alone. God was pointing that out to me clearly...I was facing it alone. How long would I tread water...alone...before I drowned?
I realized God was showing me that He wanted me to trust in Him. It wasn’t that I didn’t trust God really, but I was so used to seeking out God and facing everything with Susan that I had forgotten that I am not alone. I would pray and ask God for help but then head to battle alone. God was trying to get me to surrender. Sometimes surrendering in the midst of a battle seems like the wrong thing to do. Surrendering in the midst of a vast body of water seems like certain drowning. That’s what God wanted from me though. He wanted me to totally give everything over to Him. I have for years felt that I had in fact given my life over to God and I suppose I had but in recent times I have been planning out my battle tactics with God and then heading out onto the battlefield alone. God wants to fight my battles! I am not alone!
I am not alone! I have had to learn a hard lesson. The thing is I knew I wasn’t alone, but yet I’ve had to face things differently and so I guess in some ways I felt very much alone. God has shown me through all of this that He has sent an army out for me. I have found that the people that God has surrounded me with have stepped up. Those people I have called friends have become more than just friends. They are soldiers of God sent to fight for me. I have a new concept of love for the people God has placed around me. I have a new found respect for them all. They are all dear to me. People who were good friends have become the best friends I have ever known. I am surrounded by great men and women of God who are there to fight in defence of their brother. I am not alone!
Kari Job sings,
“In the midst of deep sorrow
I see Your light breaking through
The dark of night will not overtake me
I am pressing into You
Lord, You fight my every battle
And I will not fear
I am not alone
I am not alone
You will go before me
You will never leave me”…
God has never left me. Even in the midst of deep sorrow. I still have moments of sorrow but I am not alone. So today I sit here at my desk reflecting on all that God has done, but not not only that, I know that He is about to do more. I know that when He and I have a conversation I can count on Him fighting my battles.
Lauren Daigle sings,
“I will send out an army to find You
In the middle of the darkest night
It's true, I will rescue you”
His army can be counted on. His army consists of some really great saints that I have known for years.
“I will send out an army to find You
In the middle of the darkest night
It's true, I will rescue you
I will never stop marching to reach you
In the middle of the hardest fight
It's true, I will rescue you”
It’s true! He will send out an army! We are not alone! Isn’t that worth giving God some praise. I think so.
A group by the name of Housefires sings,
“I believe through every battle
Through every heartbreak
Through every circumstance
I believe You are my fortress
You are my portion
You are my hiding place
I believe You are the way the truth, the life
I believe You are the way, the truth, the life
I believe through every blessing
Through every promise
Through every breath I take
I believe that You are provider
You are protector
You are the one I love”
Isaiah 43:2-4 KJV
When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee: when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee.[3] For I am the LORD thy God, the Holy One of Israel, thy Saviour: I gave Egypt for thy ransom, Ethiopia and Seba for thee.[4] Since thou wast precious in my sight, thou hast been honourable, and I have loved thee: therefore will I give men for thee, and people for thy life.
No matter what we go through, no matter how hard life gets or how deep we tread through sorrows we can always face them with Jesus. He is always with us, he will send out an army for us. Warriors of Christ are there interceding in prayer for us.
I can’t seem to find a better way to close this blog than ending it with:
Psalm 42:1-11 KJV
As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O God.[2] My soul thirsteth for God, for the living God: when shall I come and appear before God?[3] My tears have been my meat day and night, while they continually say unto me, Where is thy God?[4] When I remember these things, I pour out my soul in me: for I had gone with the multitude, I went with them to the house of God, with the voice of joy and praise, with a multitude that kept holyday.[5] Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted in me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him for the help of his countenance.[6] O my God, my soul is cast down within me: therefore will I remember thee from the land of Jordan, and of the Hermonites, from the hill Mizar.[7] Deep calleth unto deep at the noise of thy waterspouts: all thy waves and thy billows are gone over me.[8] Yet the LORD will command his lovingkindness in the daytime, and in the night his song shall be with me, and my prayer unto the God of my life.[9] I will say unto God my rock, Why hast thou forgotten me? why go I mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?[10] As with a sword in my bones, mine enemies reproach me; while they say daily unto me, Where is thy God?[11] Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God.
Lord today I pray for those who are fighting battles alone. I pray for those lost in the agony of sorrow. I pray for the brother or sister stuck in a world of depression. For those people, God, who can't seem to find their way in this time of tribulation I pray God that you make that way visible for them. Show them Lord that they are not alone, resurrect them from the ashes of defeat, let your Spirit rise up within them and give them victory. Let us praise Your name, let us worship you in Spirit and in truth. God today I give you thanks for the army You send out for us. In Your name let us rise up to all the challenges laid before us. Let us gather together in Your name as warriors of Christ to intercede in prayer for those struggling to survive in this lost world.
In Your name Jesus Amen
Brother Scott Green
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